A Future
Maybe I'm not supposed to be a mother.
It’s hard to picture your future life
when you never thought the future was in your cards
because the hand you were dealt at a young age
toed the line of life survival and sacrifice.
When I look towards the future
At times, I only see the present
What is right in front of me
because that’s the sole timeline guaranteed
to not allow my bones
to be exposed with fear.
I do not believe every woman will become a mother
because it should be a choice, not a narrative.
I did not believe I would become a mother
because there was a chance my body wouldn’t allow it
and a doubt in my brain that overpowered my existence.
But I am becoming a mother in a few short months.
One who has conquered a narrative of fear and doubts
both of my brain and my body.
and I know in my hearts of hearts
this divine plan is mine.
