Before I got knocked up, the narrative that ran through my head was "If you want to be a mother you'll know from the time you yourself are born." I blame this on the way society depicts motherhood in the media, what we've been taught, and tbh, a lot of personal relationships and experience.
I was a Barbie queen but I didn't play with dolls, I NEVER babysat, and send blessings when it's time to change a diaper, so one of my main fears and thoughts before our bean manifested was "What if I'm not fit to be a mother?" or "What if I actually don't want to be a mother?"
I’ve always known I wanted a family, but I never felt the instinctual urge to have a baby like some other women do — and because of that I felt like something was wrong with me.
But as I was writing this book and bringing up this conversation, I had so many encouraging conversations with other women, who are now mothers, who have FELT this way too.
Women who run businesses, women who have changed their minds, women who have allowed themselves to walk their own path.
🌵You can find the full piece in my self-published book, Sympathy for the Strong Ones. PRE-SALE IS OFFICIALLY OPEN. You can order it directly through my website. Every order placed is an order supporting a woman owned business with a baby on the way and puppers who deserve the world.